In a classic crossroads fashion, it has been an all too familiar feeling of Déjà vu. We have been here before, What to do? Where to go? What next? What is the plan? When? Through it all, answers always come up and more than ever counting on God’s Grace to prevail again and again and for His name to be glorified.
The last 365 days has been a rollercoaster journey, a notch higher than usual. One that is marked with a persistent sinking feeling of blurred images and search for direction. I always like to think that I have had to grow up earlier than usual, while this holds true, during the past year – everything has been re-questioned. Having to live under unprecedented circumstances with COVID-19, trust me, everything was put on the table. With that much time and being removed from normal usual interaction, the mind has had a lot of time on its hands to ruminate. My tolerance and resilience for growth has been (and still being) tested but through it all, we are still here, and ultimately going nowhere till God’s purpose is fulfilled and manifested. Earlier on in the year, I tried to compress some of the key lessons so far on my life long journey here.
I have had to say a painful goodbye to Moses, but I am glad for He is in a better place and that last forehead kiss from Son to father would be like a picture framed in my memory for years to come. I have had more time to think through it all and process the impact and the void that both Esther and Moses have left, 15 years apart. As painful and lonely the journey has become, He has gone to meet his queen, both now with their maker, looking down with a smile on their faces but at the same time with gorging flamed eyes keeping watch and advocating every hour for the gift the Lord himself gave them.
As I take an introspective and retrospective look at the journey so far, ultimately, I still don’t have all the answers. There are some valid clues but definitely more than ever counting on His Grace to prevail as always. Nonetheless, despite the yearnings for a more fulfilled existence, there have been glimpses of reoccurring flashes of small wins here and there. Taking a cue from Asha “When things are getting hard and you’re struggling mentally and emotionally just remember THOSE are the moments when you are growing – view this as a gift and push through the pain”.
As a new year begins,
1. Now let’s go push through the pain and gun for the bigger wins.
2. Let’s go unravel, learn more and advance the self-discovery journey.
3. Let’s go take on life with Grace, leaving everything on the table, driving value relentlessly, making the world a better place, becoming an inspiration and sparring partner to many, going after what we love and cherish with an undeniable and unapologetic poise.
Let’s go be great!
BJA | TDM 